Tuesday, September 30, 2008 , 9:00 PM
Dental appointment today @ 11am. During the procedure when the doctor is doing the injection, i keep thinking of Hubby when i was in the delivery ward. Hubby was so caring. But now, everythings have changed. I wondering if Hubby was with me during the Dental Treatment, will i be less afraid/nervous? Anyway, during the procedure, i doesnt feel any pain just that i'm scare/nervous. Both my legs will shaking. In the middle of the procedure, i received a SMS from Hubby saying "Don't bother coming home. I have put a new padlock." Haiz, dont know what to do. But what this show that he is a super heartless person. Guess how much do i spend in total for 5 teeth extraction (Minor Surgery Procedure). Total including GST and medicine, it's cost me $704.
After the treatment, we took MRT back to CCK. Mum wanted to go LotOne NTUC to buy some meal and vegetables so that she can cook somethings for me and Mindy to eat. When we will queueing half way for cashier. I felt a sudden giddy. Mum ask me to go toilet for a washup and change the surgery cloth that was in my mouth. After washup, i went to meet Mum again. And we walked back home. When we reached home, i carry Rony to bed as he fall asleep in the pram when we are walking back home. After putting Rony in bed, I went to change the surgery cloth again and i went for a nap. Before i went for a nap, Mindy reach home, asked Mindy to help me make a phone call to my company as i need to inform them about my 5 days MC b'cos my gums was swollen, numb and with the surgery cloth, i cant talk at all.==========
This is how the procedure goes. They will spray something bitter to numb the gums. After 5 mins, they will do some injection on the gums to numb it. After afew mins, they will test where the gums is numbed. The procedure begins with cutting on the gums, making the teeth loosening and then extract it out. After extracting out the teeths, the doctor will stitched up the wound.
Monday, September 29, 2008 , 8:00 PM
On Annual Leave today. Today was also Hubby's Grandma 1st yr death anniversary.Have a bad dream yesterday night. Dont know what to do. This is how the dream goes about:*It's should be a Friday night, as usual, went to CCK and bring the 2 boys home to JE. When reach JE, the house light wasnt on. But we reach the doorstep, there was an extra pair of slippers which doesnt belong to me or Hubby. After opening the door, no one was at the living room or kitchen. But there is some light in the Master Bedroom. Not the normal light but is the yellow light which we usually switch it on when the boys was at the room sleeping. Before i went to the Master Bedroom, i carry Ryan to another room and asked Rony to look after Ryan. I closed the door and when i went to open the Master Bedroom door, saw Hubby was with another girl in the bed during XXX. Hubby even shout at me "Get lost, close the door & it's none of your business." I immediately closed the door, go to the another room carry Ryan and asked Rony to follow me. We went out of the house, walked to Void Deck, sitting there crying. Dont know what to do. Hubby didnt even come down and see us.* Awhile later the house phone rang, and i woke up. Lying down on the bed staring at the walls for around 30mins and wondering is this the reason why Hubby wanted to break this relationship but Hubby did say before he breaking this relationship is not b'cos of any girl. Haiz, doesnt want to think anymore. Went a bath. After washing up myself, watch SCV channel 55 till 12.45pm. Went to tidy up some of my stuffs. Hubby cooking what he have been cooking for his lunch for the past few days. He offer me 1 of it. I was eating while he went to burning the incense papers. After he finish burning the incense papers, he went for a bath and prepare to go out. Before he went out, he sent a sms to me "You stay at CCK. Less housework for me to do. You can at same time take care of the boys. Dun let your mum overwork." When he send me this msg, afew questions come to my mind again. What am i to him? ATM machine? Finish what he wanted, just ask me go back CCK. What housework have he done for me? Washing and ironing clothes? What have he done so far for the house/family? Just paying the house loan? What about the bills? PUB, S&CC, Internet & HPs bills? ==========
1. Do you understand the meaning of Blog? Blog is an online dairy.
2. I know you buy everything for the house using credit card. Did I ever say I'm not going to help you pay?
3. You are blaming this family that gotten you into this? No one force you to married me
4. Yes, i doesnt know how to operate the washing machine. Is that something wrong with it.
5. I doesnt need the money from you. Me and my sons will able to survive without your money.
6. I have already try to change. But you didnt give me a chance.
Sunday, September 28, 2008 , 11:40 PM
Waked up at 10am, Ryan was noisy while Rony was still sleeping. Played with him before I wash up. After washing up, went preparing Rony & Ryan stuffs as we are going to my godparent house. Once I prepare finished, waited for my mum as she helped Eric (my cousin / godparent's son) to make Achar while I bath Ryan and Rony. Once we are ready, we walked out to LotOne and took MRT to Khatib Station. Small Aunt and her family members except YongXin was ready there waiting for us. We walked from Khatib MRT Station to my godparent house. When we ready, none of the relative was there yet. Rony quite cute as we ask him to call my Godpa as Ah Gong, he say dont want so loudly just bcos he seldom see him. When he saw HaoMing (Eric's Son), he keep calling him baby instead of DiDi as he only call Ryan as DiDi. Awhile later relatives and Eric's colleuages reach. We stayed there till 6pm and it's around to rain. Walked to MRT Station and took MRT back to CCK. Went to LotOne NTUC as mum wanted to buy fruits for tomorrow (Chu Yi). After finish buying, we walk back home. Around 8pm, I took cab back to JE. Why i will take Cab? Reason: I was carrying too many things.When i reached home, thought there is no one at home as the room was dark. But when i open the door and saw Hubby was watching TV without switching on the light. After putting down the stuffs, i went out again to buy fruits & "FaGao" for tomorrow (Chu Yi). Tomorrow is also Hubby's Grandma 1st year death anniversary. After finish buying, went back home, switch on the heater while packing some of the boys clothes. Why am i packing? I also dont know, maybe it's very difficult to save this relationship bah. After packing, went for a bath and went to bed.
Saturday, September 27, 2008 , 11:11 PM
Wake up, brush teeth, bath and watch "Fathers & Sons". As i was watching, it's keep reminding me about the divorce. Why does we need to divorce? What is his reason? 1st - There is no love. 2nd - Cant live with you anymore as he cant stand my character & habits. 3rd (told by his mum) - Doesnt want me and the kids to get disturb by the banks. I cant accept this reasons b'cos why do we get married in the 1st place where there is no love? Just b'cos he doesnt want the history to happen again? He cant stand my character & habits? He know me since 2002 when we will in ITE and should have know what kind of persons i am. About the banks, i dont care much, as long as we can save this relationship. Haiz, is it so difficult to keep this relationship? Today, he keep asking me when will i move back to CCK? What he told me is when i moved out, he can rent out 1 of the rooms. Why is he so heartless toward me and the boys?Before i left home to CCK, Hubby asked me to buy afew stuffs (Dynamo, Softener, Dried Split Fish, Kitchen Towel/Paper) He also told me to stay at CCK during my long AL/MC. Took cab to CCK b'cos my hands was full of stuffs (Rony & Ryan Clothes, PS2 with the Games).
Reached CCK. so many ppls at home. Joanne, Ice, Mindy, Jacky (Joanne BF), Jeff (Ice BF), PeiJun (Mindy Friend) & SiJie (Mindy Friend). Of cos not forgetting Mum, Rony & Ryan. They will here to celebrate Jacky Bdae. Still got 2 more havent come which is CheeMing (Joanne Friend) & Jessica (Joanne Friend/Jacky GF). Around 7pm, Jeff & Jacky going out to sunshine to buy some Ice Cube for the drinks. Me & Mum followed them together with Rony & Ryan. Mum wanted to buy some cucumbers to make Achar for Eric's Son (My GodFather Grandson) full month buffet. For me, i went to buy those stuffs that Dear asked me to buy. Haiz again, Mum helped to pay for all my stuffs. "Mummy, sorry for making you pay for all the stuffs i buying." Jeff & Jacky each person take care of 1pram as all the stuffs was in the prams. Not long later, CheeMing & Jessica reached. And the celebration begins.
Friday, September 26, 2008 , 11:29 PM
There is some cope up at Filling 2. They started Fill 2 yesterday 10am but till today afternoon, they still havent completed. So Overtime for tonight and tomorrow is cancel. Hubby called and asked me to stay over at CCK tonight. The reason he give is he had an arugement with the banks and they will be coming tomorrow. He doesn't want to scare the boys. When i reach my mum's place, mum told me that Ryan's Milk Powder is finishing. My head went big again. No choice, went to LotOne NTUC with mum and Ryan while Rony was sleeping. Left Rony with Mindy & Joanne to look after. Everything that we bought was all paid by my mum. After finish buying, mummy walked back home while i took Bus 188 back to JE. "Mummy, i will try to save the money asap and return back to you. I know i really owned you alot. Mummy, i love you. You are the only person that care for me and my kids."
Smsed Dear about my leaves next week and told him i can help him with the stickers. What he send me was a heart-broken msg. "Don't bother about my stuffs. No use le. My mind is made up. Just settle in peace can le." Why does he have to do this to me? Do we really have to Divorce? What have I done wrong? Yesterday saw him enjoy smsing other people with smile and laugher but when he see me, his face changed. What am i to him? Since mother in-law say i use her word as my weapon toward his son and hurt him. Then i better don't contact them anymore. I know all parents will sure side their child. Just like my grandma, my dad was in wrong who have an external affair but she went to blame my mum and suggest to my dad to divorce with my mum and get together with the mistress. Lucky my dad didnt listen what his mum have said. "Papa, thank you for giving us a complete family. Thanks for your sponser for my teeth treatment. Without your sponser, i dont know when i can save up that amount of money for that treatment. I will try my best to save up and return the money to you and mum. Mindy still need your support, her poly life in 5yr time wasnt cheap." I alway thinking what is his reason? Why is it a must to get divorce? Did he ever love me and care about the boys?==========
Everyone must be wondering how am i go to survive with $100/mth or lesser.
1st - Dont buy anyhow buy things.
2nd - Buy whatever which is cheaper.
3rd (Dont follow this, Not a correct/healthy way) - 1 meal per day.
4th - Always use public transport like Bus & MRT
Thursday, September 25, 2008 , 11:35 PM
Today should be a happy day b'cos today is PayDay.. hehe.. Worked OT tonight till 7.30pm. After finish working, went to SPC there to withdraw money so that i can buy things. After withdrawed the money, went to buy prayer oils. Bought both normal and crystal oil. It's cost me $11.40 so expensive. The usual shop that i go was closed, so i went to the one next to it. After finish buying, went back home, on the Television and Heater. Watch "Fathers & Sons" @ SCV channel 55 till 8.45pm then went for a bath. OMG, there wasn't any water coming out from the shower tap. So i went to check other taps, have water but the water pressure wasnt same as usual. So i called Hubby, he asked me to call and check with PUB. I tried call but the Customer Service Centre was already closed so i msg Hubby to inform him. He reply back and ask me is it possible to pay ½ of the bills. I calculated and it's okay to pay ½ of the bill but i can't clear SCV and SingNet bills. Waited for Hubby to come back and unlock his computer before i can make payment thru iBanking. Guess i have spent within a day? $600 goes to my mum for looking after the kids. But she cant use the money this month just b'cos of my dental appointment for my treatment. She got to use this money to pay for my treatment and claim from my dad as my dad promise to sponser the treatment. $100 for M1 (3 lines with 2 yr contract - Myself, Hubby & Mindy). $50 for SingTel/SingNet. $120 for Starhub. $50 for SCV, $240 for PUB, $19 for S&CC. $280 for GE Money (EzyCash) b'cos i have make a loan in June. The loan amount was $9020 and payback in 48 months. Total i have spented $1459 which was like 5/6 of my pay including OT. After paying, went to test the water again and bathed. The reason for the water pressure to be low as they are doing something.==========Dental Treatment was sponsered by My Dad, My Mum & My Medisave.The dental clinic staff told us that she will help us with the claim for all the treatment fees from Medisave but we got to pay Cash. The claim procedure might be quite long as the clinic is trying to help me to spilt my payment into a few transaction.Next appointment is on Tuesday, 30Sep08. It will be a surgery procedure for 5 of my teeths at the front. Each teeth cost around $120 and the total will cost around $600 - $700.
Monday, September 15, 2008 , 4:32 PM
Deleted all posts and changed a new link.
